Today is your birthday.

I can’t help but think about your birth mom. 
Does she remember what today is?
Or is the loss of you too much to bear?
Has she has blocked the date from her mind?
Does she wonder what color hair you have?
Or if you have her eyes?
Does she wonder if you are loved and cared for?
Does she regret her decision?
Does she wonder about your personality?

I wish I could tell her how incredibly smart you are. I wish I could tell her how funny and silly you are. I wish I could explain to her how loved you are. I wish I could let her know how much you have overcome. I wish I could give her a hug and tell her how much we love her too. 

Adoption is both beautiful and heartbreaking. It’s connection and loss. There aren’t many days that I don’t think about her.